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No Rescuer Required

I know I put up a Valentine’s Day themed outfit post last week, but I really like what I wore on the day itself, so I thought I’d share it on the blog too! The t-shirt I wore is from TeePublic and features a Star Wars x Disney mashup by James Hance of Penny from The Rescuers as Princess Leia. He’s one of my favorite geek artists of all time and he just seems like a really swell guy. This judgement solely comes from following him on Twitter and Facebook. I urge you to check out his artwork! Not only does he do great geek mashups, but creates some mind blowing portraits of fictional faves; he recently did a beautiful portrait of Princess Leia with flowers that I’m in love with. The header on his website is “Relentlessly Cheerful Art,” and if his work doesn’t put a smile on your face, something is legit wrong with you!


Like I mentioned in my Valentine’s Day post, I didn’t have any plans. But throughout the day I felt pretty zen… and then super sick because all I ate was chocolate covered strawberries, marshmallows, Girl Scout cookies, and cupcakes. That aside, I didn’t even cringe when I looked at that Facebook feature “On This Day” where it shows you all the things you ever posted on a particular day on Facebook. A photo album full of pictures from my first Valentine’s Day with my ex popped up, but rather than roll my eyes and wistfully look at the pics, I just kept scrolling to see what else I posted. And then I came across this gem:

“Okay, look. I had to ask myself a really hard question. Who do I love most? And the answer was so obvious. It was staring me in the face the whole time. The person I love most is me. I love me most. Look, if I could run across the beach into my own arms, I would.” – Jackie Burkhart

I posted that quote from That 70’s Show on Valentine’s Day 2011. I think I relate to it more now than I did then. In 2011, I was 25 and so desperate to find the kind of love that was only seen in romantic comedies and Disney movies. At that time I was in an on again/off again “situationship” with a guy I pined over for so long — 3 years to be exact. For 3 years it was very “will we or won’t we?!” Or maybe it ended by that time? I don’t remember, and I deleted the guy’s “break up” email a long time ago, so I can’t look it up in GMAIL for reference. I’m sure I posted that quote to prove a point. Like, “Yeah, I don’t need a man. I HAVE ME!” when really I was an emo sack of shit that just wanted to be loved (goddammit)! Today, I can say I’ve experienced the kind of love I always dreamed of as a little girl, but it came and went in what feels like less than 12 parsecs. There are days where I feel completely jaded by how unlucky I’ve been with love, however I don’t put all my energy into dwelling on it like I did when I was in my early 20s. Now, I’m learning to love myself more despite my flaws (and holy shit, do I have many).  There’s a million things I haven’t done, and men can wait! I will choose myself over any dude… besides Rory, obviously. Because every princess needs a furry sidekick! And if I’m going to go along with this whole princess schtick,  I’m going to look up to Leia because she’s the OG self rescuing princess. If my Scruffy Looking Nerf Herder happens to come along one day, so be it. Until then, I’m not sitting by metaphorical wishing well hoping he’ll find me.



Maybe I should wear this shirt every Valentine’s Day. One can’t help but be relentlessly cheerful with such cute art on their person! How’d you spend your Valentine’s Day? Or are you like “meh, whatever” about it? Let’s talk about it in the comments!

t-shirt: TeePublic (buy here) skirt: Forever 21 (n/a)
cardigan: Merona (buy similar here) necklace: Kate Spade (n/a)
shoes: Dexflex Comfort (buy similar here)
bracelet: Love & Madness (buy here)
glasses: Glasses Lit (buy similar here)

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Roses Are Red, TIE Fighters Are Gray…


It’s Valentine’s Day and for once in the past three years I’m not bitter about it. Hooray for progress! I’m not doing anything to celebrate since this holiday is like whatever¯_(ツ)_/¯, but I did go out and kick it breakfast style with my friend Cailtin yesterday for a holiday that is superior by far: Galentine’s Day! But y’know, as much as I rag on Valentine’s Day like most other single people, it’s kind of hard to truly hate it because Valentine’s Day decorations are completely my aesthetic. This is something I’ve come to terms with. I love all the hearts and the pinks and reds and golds, the roses, the candy, the cute cards… UGH! I just can’t hate it. Everything is too damn cute and pretty. 😛

I didn’t wear this particular outfit today, but I thought it’d be cute to put together a retro geeky pinup look together to share on the blog for Valentine’s Day. Obviously, I had to go with a floral print skirt and Star Wars accessories! The hair flower is something my sister picked up for me a few months ago when she went to some tiki convention in San Diego. I’m obsessed with hair flowers — apparently at my tutoring gig, students refer to me as “the girl who always has a flower in her hair” — so my sister sent me some pics to see if I might want anything. How cute it is?! It’s a bit gaudy, but so fab! And I added a trifecta of Valentine’s Day-ish Star Wars pins to my red velvet top.





Roses are red
TIE Fighters are gray
I love Darth Vader
Happy Valentine’s Day!

Whether you celebrate or not, are single or taken, I hope your day is wonderful  ♥

PS: My alternative Star Wars Valentine’s Day poem:

Roses are red
Darth Vader is blue
‘Cause Padme is dead
Boo-hoo 😦

top & petticoat: Tatyana Boutique (buy here and here) |
skirt: Forever 21 (n/a) | shoes: Report (n/a)
hair flower: Fancy Fruit (buy similar here)
bouquet pin: BB-CRE.8 (buy similar here)
TIE Fighter pin: TeeFury (n/a)
Darth Vader pin: Variety Club (buy here)
purse: Loungefly (buy here

(outfit photos by Caitlin Hamer)


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I Am One With the Floral, the Floral is With Me

A couple weeks ago my aunt randomly asked me, “Do you want to go to a LuLaRoe party?” My response was obviously an enthusiastic YES! If you’re unfamiliar with LuLaRoe, it’s a clothing company that’s pretty similar to Avon and Mary Kay in the sense that people can sign up and become sellers that work from home either full time or as a side gig. A lot of them set up Facebook groups and post their inventory so you can purchase whatever your heart desires… so long as no one beats you to claiming it! I first heard about the company through my sister as her co-worker sells LuLaRoe on the side. Girl has like 20+ leggings and I don’t know how many dresses or skirts by them! LuLaRoe’s claim to fame seems to be their fun patterned leggings which feel like butter. I own three pairs. Haha!

My aunt’s co-worker invited us to go to her daughter’s LuLaRoe party, so I went just to look. I had no intention of buying anything, but I obviously didn’t leave empty-handed! I got 3 Azure skirts, but when I tried them on I lifted it up over my bust to see if they’d look good as a dress. As you can see, it totally works! I paired this floral lavender one with my a bunch of Star Wars accessories because why not? I also recently ordered some awesome Star Wars enamel pins from BB-CRE.8, so I put them on my denim jacket. One of them is a bouquet of blue tulips coming out of the hilt of Luke Skywalker’s lightsaber, and the other is a speech bubble that says, “I Am One With the Force… The Force Is With Me” which is Chirrut Imwe’s mantra from Rogue One. That particular pin is really amazing because it glows in the dark (green, like the Force) and on the back it says, “Are you kidding me? I’m blind!” So many little easter eggs packed into one pin… I had to have it! I’ve actually been drooling over the Luke Skywalker and Darth Vader (not pictured) bouquet pins since December, and even placed an order back in January. But it didn’t go through and they sold out! When I saw that they had been restocked, I hit “add to cart” and “buy” in less than 12 parsecs.





I just realized I never gushed about Rogue One when I watched it back in December! I’ve heard a lot of people compare it to Force Awakens, but I don’t quite think that’s fair since Rogue One is a stand-alone film. However, I will say that I had a lot more fun watching Force Awakens because it was like revisiting old friends and seeing new ones, but Rogue One‘s story, to me, was much more compelling and original. And I can’t believe I haven’t seen it a bajillion times! I definitely want to head back to the theater and watch it at least one more time before it goes away. Also, Bodhi Rook and Cassian Andor are my new Star Wars baes. Shhh… don’t tell General Hux I’ve gone rogue against the Dark Side.

Did you watch Rogue One? Let’s geek out about it in the comments section!

le fancy geek outfit fashion bloggerDress/Skirt: LuLaRoe (join here) | purse: Loungefly (buy here)
shoes: Dexflex Comfort (buy similar here) | lipstick: Too Faced (buy here)
Enamel Pins: BB-CRE.8 (buy here) | jacket: Mossimo (buy here)

Darth Vader necklace: Le Fancy Geek Boutique (buy here)




The first month of 2017 has come and gone, and to say it’s been a doozy would be a complete understatement. I celebrated my 31st birthday on the 12th last month, and though the day itself was okay — I went to work, tried to keep the fact that it was my birthday under the radar (despite the fact that I’m usually a complete attention whore when it comes to my birthday), but my boss found out anyway (thanks, Facebook) and surprised me with cupcakes, and I got a little too white girl wasted drunk during Happy Hour at work since my dinner plans were cancelled (oops) — but the next day I felt crippled with anxiety. It gnawed at my chest all day and continued throughout the weekend. I felt like a waste of space. I felt like everything I did wasn’t good enough. I felt so pathetic. And haven’t felt that way for quite some time.

I was staying at my cousin’s apartment in San Francisco (I work in the city 3 times a week), and her and her husband went away for the weekend, so I had the whole apartment to myself come Friday night. It felt nice to be alone and to have all of San Francisco at my disposal, but I’ve always been an anxious person. At 24, my doctor diagnosed me with anxiety disorder. So I’m always stressed, constantly worried, fearful of little things (like making a phone call), but somehow I’ve managed to keep it all at bay and feel relatively “normal.” It seemed like I was finally starting to get over the depressive funk I’ve been stuck in for the past 3 years. But I guess turning another year older and finding that I’m still not where I want to be in life creeped its way to the surface and ripped apart the protective layer of happiness I managed to create.

Sitting quietly on the couch of someone else’s home with nothing but my thoughts was a recipe for disaster. Ennui swept over as I sat in an apartment very much like the one I imagined myself living in when I was 21. My dream was to be a successful writer living in San Francisco with a tan French Bulldog named Jacque Cousteau, and that I was very well traveled, and was basically like Carrie Bradshaw minus the whole writing about my sex life for all to read bit. Hopefully in a happy long-term relationship, or happily single. That’s what I imagined. Then I dwelled on the reality of my actual situation — still living with my parents, still writing but not exactly the kind of stuff I thought I would, not as well traveled as I’d like to be, involuntarily celibate for the past 3 years… the good part though? I have a dog! But he wasn’t there with me. And then the loneliness sank in. As much as I love being an introvert and don’t like being around people, I like having them around sometimes. And even though I have no desire to be in a romantic relationship any time soon, I found myself longing for that kind of companionship. Then I downloaded Bumble (and have done absolutely nothing with it).

I found myself crying in the shower for no reason that weekend. I cried myself to sleep at night too.

I’m just frustrated all around. I’m frustrated with myself because I still can’t seem to move forward. I feel like I’m trying, but it’s not enough. I feel like I’m waist deep in quicksand, and for every inch I manage to claw my way to, I get sucked back in 5 more inches. I’m just stuck. I’m frustrated with the state of the country I live in because holy hell, what is even happening?! It’s like America has become a goddamn dystopia. The combination of that and where I’m at emotionally/mentally, well… it sucks. It just sucks. I’m so frustrated I can’t even think of a good way to phrase how sucky it all is!

Things could be worse. Believe me, I know. I get irritated when I find myself dwelling on things when I know there are people worse off than me. I have a job (2 actually), I have friends and family that love and support me, I have a roof over my head, I have a dog who lights up with joy when I come home. Even though I have all that, it doesn’t mean the negative feelings I have aren’t valid. It doesn’t mean I’m wrong for feeling the way that I feel. And if there’s one thing I learned about myself within the past 3 years, it’s this: I am strong. I am a fucking fighter. In all the times I cry, and curl up into a despondent ball of hopelessness, I’ve found that I always manage to pick myself right back up and keep going.

So here I go. Attempting to crawl out of the quicksand. Bring it, 2017.