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A few months ago during a Wear Your Voice Mag (WYV) meeting, it was brought up that articles with personal narratives that included cultural experiences were some that our readership really responded to. When it came time to do pitches, I immediately thought of what it was like growing up as a chubby pinay. It was really the only thing I could think of to write about regarding personal narratives about my Filipino upbringing. As I started jotting down notes, I found it to be very hard and painful to write. Digging up all these horrific moments from the depths of my memory put me in panic mode and guilt ridden, so I put off writing it for quite a bit.  I didn’t go into full detail about everything I had gone through though in my final draft as I had to consider my word count, and also that I was focusing on how my culture in particular had effected me — not how my peers did. That could be another article all together. It’s just really hard growing up on the heavier side of the scale because it makes you the automatic target of ridicule.

I saw that it was posted last Wednesday, but I made no plans to share it because all this anxiety began to build within me. I started to worry about what people would think. The Filipino community is always depicted as being an extremely friendly and happy bunch, yet I wrote about how in that culture it seems perfectly acceptable to make blunt comments on someone’s appearance — particularly whether someone is too fat or too skinny. So basically, in my article it sounds like I’m saying Filipinos can be extremely insensitive bags of dicks. I’ve only been to the Philippines twice, the last time was 11 years ago when I had just turned 19. A relative we stayed with called a month after we came back home and while I talked to her on the phone, she casually asked, “Have you lost any weight?” Where did that even come from? A couple years after that, I opted out of going back there for a month with my mom, dad, sister, youngest cousin, and my aunt because I didn’t want to have to deal with being told I was fat everyday for a month straight. My mom came back with a couple of stories that would’ve made me cry a damn ocean — she told me about how she talked to a local and they asked her if she was American, and she joked “Yes! Can you tell by my accent?” Their response? “No. It’s because you’re fat.” She also told me that when her, my cousin, and my dad got into a taxi the driver went out to check on the back tires to make sure their weight didn’t bring them down. Like… what the fuck?

I was also worried about sharing this article because it’s so personal. I briefly talk about attempting suicide, and of course, my family. I worried (or, I am still worried as I have not shared it with them yet) about what they’d think of it. Would I hurt their feelings? Would I upset them? Anger them? Offend them? Would this cause drama? I was seriously not planning on sharing it, and was thinking it would fly under the radar anyway since my articles on WYV don’t create that much of a buzz. But that changed on Tuesday. My article was shared on their Facebook page, and someone had left a comment on one of my Instagram pictures telling me they had just read my article and how they related to it. I woke up the next morning to a message on Facebook. Someone else had thanked me and said the article resonated with them, and how they could see their daughters getting effected by the same type of comments I grew up with. Instagram notifications showed other people commented that they had read my article. I looked at my post on WYV’s Facebook — it’s been shared 30 times so far, and the comments I’ve seen people make throughout the day have been nothing but supportive.

If you’d like to read it, you can find it here:

http://wearyourvoicemag.com/body-politics/growing-up-chubby-and-filipino

Thank you to all who’ve reached out, commented on WYV’s page, and shared the article. It means so much that my words were able to resonate with some of you and let you know that you’re not alone. ❤

cheers le fancy geek fashion blogger

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The Biblio Files: Harry Potter Year 1 & 2

I’ve been wanting to re-read the Harry Potter series for quite awhile now. I purchased a box set of the complete series three years ago with the intent of starting it then, but I kept getting distracted whenever I picked up The Sorcerer’s/Philosopher’s Stone. I’ve mentioned it on here before, but I find myself having a hard time focusing whenever I try to dive into a book. It’s really annoying! Finding audiobooks to listen to while reading along has helped a lot, and I’m so happy I finally found the hard drive I had all my Harry Potter audiobooks on!

What finally made me get back into the series, aside from finding my audiobook files, is most likely the hype surrounding all the Harry Potter related things happening this year — the Wizarding World of Harry Potter is FINALLY opening up on the west side very soon, Harry Potter and the Cursed Child, the eighth story in the series, is coming out in July along with the stage play in London, and Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them comes out in November. Plus Pottermore’s come out with brand new information on witchcraft and wizardry in North America and articles about other wizarding schools around the world. It’s just a really amazing time to be a Potterhead right now!

I knocked out the first and second books in a little over a week and I’m nearly done with The Prisoner of Azkaban (my favorite of the series). It’s been really interesting revisiting these books as I have only read the series once through back when I was a sophomore in high school. It was around the same time the first Harry Potter movie came out, so the first four books were out already, and then I had to wait patiently for books 5-7 to come out! Knowing what’s going to happen with each story, I can see the subtle clues J.K. leaves and it’s just mind blowing. Oh, and I’ve been listening to the readings done by Stephen Fry and I’m seeing that my copies have been (understandably) super Americanized, so I’ve taken the liberty to make corrections because I want to read it the way J.K. intended! Plus when it referred to football as soccer, I was like, “This is based in the UK. They don’t call it soccer there. America is like the only country that says that. STOP INSULTING MY INTELLIGENCE!” Raaaawwwrrr!

How many times have you read the series? Do you plan on reading them again soon? Have you read them at all?! Let’s talk about it in the comments section!

cheers le fancy geek fashion blogger

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Fandom of the Month Club: Snape Tribute Box

Last week this cute little box from Fandom of the Month Club arrived at my doorstep! I’ve been waiting for this ever since I ordered it back in January as it is the special Snape Tribute Box that they put together in honor of Alan Rickman. They also donated $2 for every box to St. Jude’s. It took them 4-6 weeks to design the jewelry as it wasn’t planned out.

It came with a black pouch that says “Property of the Half Blood Prince” in gold, 4 pieces of jewelry, a magnet with a minimalist portrait of Snape, a decal that says “Always” with the a being a Deathly Hallows (not pictured, but you can see it in the unboxing video above), and a really pretty postcard. Overall, I’m super pleased with everything it came with! My particular favorite piece from the box is the necklace with the doe, a lily flower, and a little bottle that says “look at me.” I got quite emotional when I saw it. Actually, the box as a whole made me very emotional because of the premise of why the box was made in the first place. 😦

Since the Snape Tribute box did very well, they’re putting out another special box themed “Magical Creatures.” It’s $16, but $2 will be donated to Hearts United for Animals. Like the Snape box, it’ll take 4-6 weeks for the item to ship out as they need the time to put together designs for the jewelry in the collection. I’m thinking of picking this one up too because if I was a student at Hogwarts, I think Care of Magical Creatures would be my favorite class. 🙂

cheers le fancy geek fashion blogger

 

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The Book of Mormon

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Last Tuesday my mom and I FINALLY watched The Book of Mormon. This is a musical we’ve been wanting to watch for years, and we’d always say we should watch it when it comes to San Francisco or Sacramento… except it’d always and come and go before we had a chance to buy tickets. This time around it came to Sacramento again and my mom managed to snag the last two tickets of its run! In case you’re not familiar with The Book of Mormon, it was written by Trey Parker and Matt Stone, the dudes who created South Park, and Robert Lopez, the man who is 50% responsible for “Let It Go.” Sooo, you can only imagine how extremely crass the humor of the show was. There were moments where my mouth was left agape because I was like, “What the f*ck am I watching??? Did they just say that?!” Just listen to “Hasa Diga Eebowai” (with headphones on). But I totally loved the show! I was only familiar with “I Believe” since I remembered seeing Andrew Rannell’s performance on the Tony’s about 5 years ago.

Its protagonist, Elder Price, is sent to Uganda for his 2 year mission. He’s absolutely gutted as he’d been a devout Mormon, and believed that his prayers of being sent to Orlando would be answered. On top of that, he’s been paired with Elder Cunningham, a dweeby guy with a penchant for fabricating the truth. Elder Price has a hard time adjusting to the harshness of his new surroundings as him and Elder Cunningham were mugged on arrival to the village by a warlord named General Butt-F*cking-Naked (I kid you not). Unable to reach the people with his faith, Elder Price has had enough and storms off saying he’s putting in a request for just him to transfer to Orlando, leaving Elder Cunningham behind. However, a girl named Nabulungi is entranced by the idea of the salvation Salt Lake City could possibly bring to her and her people, and seeks Elder Price. But, with him gone it’s up to Elder Cunningham, and his penchant for fabricating the truth ensues as he’s actually never read The Book of Mormon.

Okay, that’s all I’ll say about the plot. It’s incredibly hilarious though, but if you’re religious and quite sensitive and reserved, I would skip. And maybe stop reading because the pictures below might make you faint…

After the show was done, the actor that played Elder Price talked to the audience about Broadway Care/Equity Fights AIDS and what we as an audience could do to help support the cause. He also said if we didn’t donate, Jesus would think we’re a dick (inside joke from show). Actors from the show were out on the mezzanine with buckets for cash donations, and there were other goods you could get for a certain price. For $20 you could take a picture with Jesus and Satan! I mean, $20 seems like a lot for a picture, but the money was going to a good cause and I couldn’t pass up the opportunity! The actor who played Satan was so nice when it was my turn. He said he liked my flower and that the snake from his costume was probably going to be in it. I actually felt his costume snag my hair. And look at what a gentleman Jesus was; he left enough room between us for God. 🙂

I’d definitely watch The Book of Mormon again should it ever return to a city near me! Have you seen it or any other musicals recently? Let’s talk about it in the comments section 😀

cheers le fancy geek fashion blogger

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Everyday Cosplay: King George III from Hamilton

t-shirt: Red Bubble | skirt: ModCloth | shoes: B.A.I.T. Footwear

Last month I officially became Hamiltrash; I’ve been listening to the Hamilton soundtrack non-stop (ha, puns!) since I picked it up. I realize that I’m super late to the party, but daaaaammmn, do I understand what the hype with this musical is all about! And I’m totally kicking myself for not checking it out sooner. Hamilton is a work of sheer genius. Lin-Manuel Miranda, the creator and star of the musical, did such an outstanding job of blending hip-hop, r&b, and Beatles-esque music to tell the tale of Alexander Hamilton, a.k.a. the dude on the $10 bill, or as the musical refers to him “the ten dollar founding father.” The soundtrack both entertains and educates, and I love the fact that the cast is racially diverse; as Lin-Manuel Miranda puts it, it’s the story of America then told by America now. <– pretty sure I paraphrased it, but he said something along those lines.

Leave it to me to put together an outfit inspired by King George III, who’s portrayed by Jonathan Groff, though. Ha! His part in the show is quite small (probably around 9 minutes of stage time total), but “You’ll Be Back” is currently my jam! This is where the Beatles influence can be heard in the show, and it’s basically a kiss-off/break-up song that he sings to America. I adore how cheeky King George III is, and Groffsauce sings it with such flourish and gusto 😀

Who else thinks Hamilton is awesome (wow)? Let’s fangirl in the comments section!

cheers le fancy geek fashion blogger

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5 Fandom Friday: 5 Fandom Tattoos I Have/Want

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It’s been a really long time since I’ve participated in 5 Fandom Friday, but today’s prompt was a fun one that I couldn’t pass up. It’s about fandom tattoos, which is something I’ve been thinking a lot about lately (number 3 on my list in particular). But alas. Tattoos are effing expensive, so I need to put my ink dreams to the side for “adulting” things.

1. Jingles from Disneyland’s King Arthur’s Carrousel

This is my one and only tattoo so far, and I like to call it my obscure hipster Disney tattoo because it’s pretty inconpicuous. It was designed and tattoed by Jen Lee at Tattoo City in San Francisco. I’ve always had a love of all things equine and Disney, and the first piece of writing I ever had published involved carousels, so it made sense to get Jingles, the lead horse on King Arthur’s Carrousel, as my first tattoo.

2. A portrait of Rory

Not quite a fandom tattoo as Rory is my dog furry baby, but I love him so much! His name came from Doctor Who anyway, so I guess it’s fandom-y enough.

3. Hufflepuff badger with a fancy Deathly Hallow

I really, really, really want a tattoo dedicated to my Hufflepuff pride! Ever since I came across a badger tattoo done by Kiki Burghardt on Instagram, I knew that she was the one that had to do it. I already have a good idea of what I want it to look like too; I want it to be surrounded by leaves (kinda like the design above by Veronica Guzzardi) and yellow flowers, and somehow have the Deathly Hallows be incorporated. I’m unable to locate the picture of the badger tattoo I originally saw by her, but you guys should totally check out her Instagram! I want the Deathly Hallows part to be detailed with filigree or something like that. I found a picture on Pinterest a few years ago that would be perfect! But I want mine to be different because I don’t want to straight up copy the person who already has the tattoo.

(Deathly Hallows tattoo found here)

4. “Make Good Art” in Gallifreyan

My friends and I have talked about getting BFF tattoos in Gallifreyan for a few years. At first it was something me and my ex talked about before we started dating. It was brought up again when I got my Jingles tattoo, and my friends said, “F*ck him. We can all get Gallifreyan BFF tattoos instead!” All of ours would have different sayings that means something to us, but the fact that it’s Gallifreyan will help keep in theme with the BFF-yness of it all. I want mine to say “Make good art” which is something Neil Gaiman said in a very inspiration commencement speech about 3 years ago. It’ll be a constant reminder for me to stay creative and make good art, whether it be writing or jewelry making. I found this particular design here.

5. BB-8/R2-D2

After watching The Force Awakens, I couldn’t get the thought of getting BB-8 and R2 tats on my calves! At first I thought about getting them as tattoos on either thigh, but then decided calves would be a better location. How cute would that be?! Star Wars is one of my beloved fandoms and I’ve been trying to think of what character I would want as a tattoo. I’m a Dark Side girl, but I wasn’t really crazy about the idea of a Darth Vader tattoo. I thought about a Storm Trooper in Elizabethan era garb or in Victorian era fashion. But the droids are just so damn cute! I came across this art print of BB-8 by Michelle Coffee and would want it to look something like it.

Do you have any fandom tattoos or are thinking about getting one? Let’s talk about it in the comments section! 😀

cheers le fancy geek fashion blogger


To find out the origins of 5 Fandom Friday, go here. And check out The Nerdy Girlie and Super Space Chick to catch up with the latest prompts! 

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Level Up by Loot Crate February Review & Giveaway!

{GIVEAWAY NOW CLOSED} winners have been contacted. thanks to all who entered!

Holy sh!t biscuits, y’all! Level Up totally killed it with the loot that came in their February fashion subscriptions, which is funny considering that the theme of the month was “Dead.” Haha! #PunsForDays

But seriously, there was so much cool stuff! I was particularly stoked for the women’s Wearable subscription item because I knew Her Universe was designing something with Deadpool and tacos. And you guuuys, the top they came out with is the cutest thing EVER!!!!

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Here’s a breakdown of what every subscription came with:

♥ Female Fashion Accessories: Blood Splatter nail wraps by Espionage Cosmetics and a The Walking Dead cherokee rose necklace by Bioworld.

♥ T-Shirt: black and white Silence of the Lambs tee.

♥ Socks: Deadpool and glow-in-the-dark Death Eaters (Harry Potter) socks.

FYI: There are 2 combo subscriptions you can subscribe to – one is the wearable item + socks, and the other is the fashion accessories + t-shirt

To subscribe to one of the many Level Up subscriptions, please go here and use code “LEFANCYGEEK” to save 10%! March’s theme is “Versus” and includes items from Captain America: Civil War and Batman vs. Superman!

Keep on reading to get to the giveaway portion!

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I was really excited about the Esiponage Cosmetics nails wraps that came with the Female Fashion Accessories sub. It has a blood splatter design that reminded me of Dexter. And they glow in the mother effin’ dark! That was a total surprise to me as my nails glowed while I watched Zootopia at the theater on Monday. It does say they’re glow-in-the-dark on the package, but I was too excited to put them on my nails to bother reading anything else on it. I put the nail wraps on about a week and a half ago and they’re still on! If you ever get any nail wraps from Espionage, I highly recommend putting a top coat over to help make it last longer.

Even though I’ve never seen Silence of the Lambs or watched Hannibal because scary movies and TV shows aren’t my thing, I really love the shirt and its design is pretty inconspicuous to the unknowing. Except when I wore it to work one day, my co-worker was like, “Oh my God, it’s the death moth!” and I’m like, “the what-what?” * shoulder shrug * And… I don’t watch The Walking Dead either (I tried! it was too stressful!), but I’m loving how simplistic the cherokee rose necklace is. When you open the pendant, there’s a mirror on the inside, and on the back it’s inscribed with a quote that says “This rose started to grow right where the mother’s tears fell.”  Even though I’m not part of the fandom, I am sooooo happy for all you Richonne shippers!!! 

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Overall, I was super happy with all the items that came with every subscription. But the Deadpool shirt by Her Universe, you guys. You guuuuuys. IT IS GIVING ME SO MUCH LIFE. And the nail wraps go with it perfectly!

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Okay, enough jabbering, let’s get onto the important part of the post: THE GIVEAWAY!

Level Up sent me an extra package full of goodies from all of the subscription services they have to offer and one of you lucky ponies can win it! FYI, both the wearable item and t-shirt come in my size (2x) so if you’ve got big booby-8s like me or are willing to tailor the tees, enter away!

Also, five of you will be get a code to get a free subscription for March’s Level Up Female Accessories subscription! This month’s accessory will feature Batman, Superman, and a special guest… I’m assuming it’s Wonder Woman. Who else could it be?!

The giveaway starts today (March 9) and ends next Tuesday, March 16. Winners will be chosen and contacted the morning of the 17th.

Code winners, please make sure you use the code by the 19th because that’s the last day to subscribe to all subscriptions from Loot Crate.

These giveaways are open to US residents only. Sorry to all my international ponies.

 

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Don’t forget: the more options you enter with, the more entries you’ll get to better your chances of scoring a prize!! Good luck!! 😀

cheers le fancy geek fashion blogger


 

FTC Disclosure: Loot Crate sent me these items to review. Along with the items, I earn a small compensation when purchases are made through my affiliate link. All opinions given are honest and my own.

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Must Love Dogs

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I had my first official day of dog grooming school last Saturday! The main thing I’ve been doing is learning how to properly bathe and dry them, clean their ears, and clip their nails. Clipping their nails is scary as fuck, you guys. I accidentally cut a little too close on an Italian Greyhound’s hind paw and it started bleeding, and he already nearly fell off the table prior to that when I was drying him. Soooo, yeah. Not good! Despite how nerve wrecking he was, I didn’t let it get to me and managed to soldier on with the other dogs I had to bathe. I think I’m supposed to start learning how to do sanitary cuts this week (buzzing off fur underneath the tail and belly area), and need to be able to name different parts of a dog’s anatomy since I’m getting quizzed on that on Friday.

It’s really hard work. I wasn’t expecting it to be easy, but my poor back was in a world of pain from having to bend over the tub.

So, why dog grooming? It’s seems pretty random considering that I got my degree in Creative Writing. But like I learned in the soul sucking Business of CW class I took my senior year, all writers take on random jobs to support themselves. My degree isn’t helping me out much as far as jobs/careers are concerned. Maybe it would help if I wanted to be a teacher, but I have absolutely no desire for that. Being a tutor is enough for me on the education front! I’ve been trying to figure out what I want to do as far as work is concerned. Ideally, it would involve traveling opportunities, writing, and working with like-minded people,  but what job is that? So then I thought about working with dogs. Ever since I got Rory, my heart aches even more when those damn Humane Society commercials with Sarah McLachlan come up. Or if I see a stray dog, it hurts too because I hate the fact that they don’t have a loving family to spoil them rotten. I knew I didn’t want to be a vet or vet tech, but I wanted to help/work with dogs in some capacity. Dog grooming presented itself a few times since my aunt saw an ad in the paper about a local dog grooming school last year. I always brushed it aside whenever she brought it up, but last year it came up again and it just clicked. So that’s where I am now!

I’m also taking an online creative writing class which is going fairly well. I started working on a new story last night and ended up writing over 1,000 words! Still not sure where the story is going, but it feels really good to be creating fiction again. 🙂

cheers le fancy geek fashion blogger