Some friends have showered me with compliments about how photogenic I am and have been told a few times that I should model professionally. While I find it super sweet and flattering, that just makes me just want to wave my hand dismissively whilst saying, “Me? Model? Pssssshhhh.” Growing up, I never felt pretty because I was always made fun of for the way I looked — especially because I was chubby (and obviously still am). I remember in second grade I had a crush on a boy and I was sitting next to him during lunch. My BFF at the time kept saying, “I know who Nina likes! I know who Nina likes!” And even though I insisted that she shut up, she went ahead and let it slip, and the boy let me know he did not feel the same way by dropping his eating utensils and scooting the hell away from me while saying, “Uggggh! Ugggh!” 🙁
I could list more harrowing experiences from my youth that contributed to my low self-esteem, but I won’t.
Anyway, a few months ago I responded to a California open-call Sourpuss Clothing put out on Instagram to do a photoshoot for new pieces from their Fall collection. I figured, “why not?” If my friends think I have what it takes, then I should go for it. By the time they got my email they said that they had already picked out their models, BUT they liked my blog a lot and wanted to send me some of the dresses that they photographed for the shoot! So here I am wearing one of their “Love Crafty” Cthulhu dresses they sent. 😀 I have yet to read any Cthulhu stories that H.P. Lovecraft wrote, but they’re on my infinitely long list of things to read.
Thanks for the dresses, Sourpuss! And no thank you to the boy(s) who made me feel gross and ugly. 😛
dress: c/o Sourpuss Clothing (buy here) | vest: Mossimo (buy here)
belt: Xhileration | ankle boots: Blowfish Shoes
black tights: ? | hair flower: Laliberi
pen necklace: vintage | bullet bracelet: MVH Designs (buy here)
gold watch: Timex | glasses: Brooks Brothers
photo credit: Jennifer Khut